Caught between spiritual living and physical mindsets.

My heart and mind is looking at the situation like woah. Past year through the strive of having better profit margins and crazy work where people almost had to scream at each other due to their selfishness or for whatever reason. We all as a company were trying to balance the bar between relationships in the office and with God. The best point even when the bosses are preaching the same nominal role of pushing us to respect our leaders. thinking that we don’t but actually we do. As all of us are trying hard just that we don’t have much time to talk. ( Its not I don’t respect you! I don’t respect the situation that we are in!) – Don’t hate the player but hate the game. in that metaphor – you can control situations and outcomes. I was still asking this question is anybody bigger than God? Bosses to leaders and small leadership roles. Demanding respect was something I only understood in and in due situations but having to give is another.

Things that God has revealed to me was alot of things that alot of humans that can cut pass face value and having full value for pure word promise to actions and understanding what God’s principles are for HIS people. Not for the human leadership. Yes! we have leaders to leaders and bosses to boss us around but nobody is bigger than God for sure. Try demanding respect from God when you still have sin n your life! I think we all know what this outcome is. Zapp!

I had had to give to one of my superiors who explained the situation as leaders not all leaders are perfect. Yes I understood that long way back. But still, transparency is needed in God’s house. Which I know that makes a family unit and bond so strong by the grace of God’s we all know where we stand as a company in a circular world and marketplace. Yes actions do count. But demanding respect nah. I stop action acting when I went to bible school with an understand the relationships are important more then the work and the expense of the people to energy usage. True action by heart is always by God not force but perfectly by God thats my belief. Of course also practicing giving.

I am caught in between having to stay or go. If and ever this situation comes. I am caught so bad due to a physical, mental and emotional burnout that I can’t seem to move as fast as I usually can. Even in the last few weeks. After a company so called retreat and management meeting. We all had face the 20% blessing and through this strive then I saw the love and grace of God. Which was so true, without pain we would never learn. not striving with our minds and heart and our own will. During the trip it had shown alot of changes after strife. God love just when wrapping around people like me and other who needed the rest which was kinda cool!

Alright i will have to stop here. If you do read this please do comment and give me some insight about what you think can be done in a christian culture in the market like the office culture and market. Tell me about what you think too I am open to option to understanding people too. Learning is something I never had.

Thanks for dropping by!

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Your Grace, Wisdom & Strength

This would be one of the hardest to write or even type out due to our sinful nature. As humans we sometimes have only one perspective and which i Thank God for HIS wisdom and revelation revealed to men. As for this plot of text that I am getting ready to share will be hardest for me working in the christian culture. Sometimes sad,fake & happy.

Col 3:23 NKJV
And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not unto men.

When I entered this office it was all happy and cherry. Which I thought was really vague and fake. I learnt in Bible school that action counts alot to how we apply in proper action. Balancing the action and word to promises of God and working in faith and faithfully giving. In which turn from kindness being taken for granted. I really didn’t want to go back to that situation of fighting fire with fire and becoming that unforgiven person. But I had too. To show certain people in the office that not every was for them. It really yielded to my anger and my old self jadedness came back.

Worst of all you can see things happening in the office which I could not comprehend. Saying that your a christian and giving the other side of the butt. God which part of firmness do I apply. And meekness towards people older then me? Shit no! Unnecessary energy and time wasted in talking which means nothing! Help i am ready to quit and move without work and money in the pocket. Rather be poor and have a sound-mind and heart.

God what is going on?

This was interesting enough!

Past few weeks had gone by at work without much hitches and sorts. With most time idling at work because of the long hours at work. I started to question God~ Does this company still need me even after the company shifts to a new place? (as the training academy is separated from the main office). It seems, on the day where I had to go back to do some staff at the main office which of course there was a back lot of paper shuffling to be done and at the same time having spent most time away from the main body of the company.

I was surprised that my immediate superior came to talk to me to see how were things going at the external training site. And yes, going through the process of answering his question came a very important TALK! Which of course I was scared….. He called me into the meeting room to tell me this.

Superior: I have been talking to the other management team members and they find that I was valued to the company.

(which after he asked)

Superior: What do you think of joining the team??? Permanently?

(I paused for like 3 to 4 second before answering)

Me: Well~ I definitely would like to join,(and i continued to say) But i need to adjust to company settings again which i hope is fast. (As i have been always working mostly alone at the training academy / centre and as an extension of the company).

At this point my mind had moved so much so that God actually had answered my question. And then again I went back to work wondering should I walk away from this job after I am done with this contract. (on basis of Little foot productions)  Thinking about this project and thinking about the freedom that came with it. Like doing music again and side projects of designs and pre productions.  Of course the struggle too being the boss.

Then another thought came in to my mind~ Will I be a white elephant in the company if the thing for support logistic and admin assistant is not needed? when the shift is done?

I came to only this conclusion. To support my side projects. I need capital. Which now i am short of. And maybe in time if God wills my life to do my own business then I will follow through. I pray that I really walk this straight and narrow. Thank God for the opportunities to open to which I need my proper stability finically and in mental too. I pray for the strength and guidance too. Spiritual clarity and pureness of heart in love in what ever i am called to do.

Right now still worried about what is about to happen!

The Logging.

This week has been a crazy one. Work is picking up in my current job and doing some side line for this company future. Hate planning as much as doing detailed planning. But what the heck things you have to do and become more analytic about thing just because of money. 

I believe that if God see us doing the right with money will be given more maybe not in only in money but also in service to God. One thing I am still learning is to really trust God for everything. 

Will be putting more info in time to come for business plan are not quiet there yet. 

And yes i have started typing out my life story. there will be one pace dedicated to it. So yah, keeping doing my thing. More great things happening, even if the world is getting slowly twisted to the plastics society. 

 

The official order roll.

Yes i believe things were in work life when we all have enough of things seen in the office. politics too.

Bosses with out a brain or heart or proper strategy  – A pain too really work with in the long run. And yes they are just stupid.

Bosses with a brain, heart and proper strategy – A pain but sometimes hard to please.

Bosses who are just money minded – The worst of things that can ever happen to you is having to take a job with that company.

Who do you think has more power? CEO? or the CFO?

In my thinking the CEO is just a lazy officer in command who controls a bunch of yes man in semi operation and show face type. Well i am not discouraging companies in having one CEO. But i find that having one in the company he has to do proper effective marketing and manage-ring role in the company for what he or she is paid to do.

My thinking is that the CFO does more then just financial organisational movement. I think they have a lot more power in organisational skill and proper financial advice mostly joined with a lot ranks in the business and most things.

On this i would still have quality and proper service and proper ops rolling. I think i would still get a CFO to proper movers and shakers in the organisation. Well that’s just me.

There are times have the where i have to remind myself there is only so much we all can achieve in business for money never made the world go round and will not make you happy.Consider this – money was made for easy transactions.

There are a lot of things i would like to share but ti guess i would have to sit down and type another day. Ton’s of paper work coming my way!